Reality vs The Big Dream

I’ll jump right into it, I don’t know if every girls dream is the same. Since I can remember all I ever wanted was a large family with multiple children. I wanted to move away to the middle of no where, on a farm. Be a stay at home mom maybe even do homeschool for my kids, but my reality is very far from my dream. Let’s go back a few months to the day I found out I was expecting twins. Boy oh boy! Did this catch me by surprise. I went alone to this doctors appointment because it was only a follow up appointment no mom, no husband (at the time), no Alexander just me. As the doctor was examining me during the ultrasound his face completely change. I was petrified I thought my child had issues or this pregnancy was going to be a bad one. I glanced over to my ultrasound and asked my doctor what was wrong. His silence was killing me. Then, suddenly out of no where my favorite nurse came into the room with a big smile. In Spanish she yelled “Ay no puede ser son dos ay Dios mío que felicidad” I turned around freaking out. I was having an anxiety attack. Three kids?! I can’t have 3 kids! All I could do was cry. I wasn’t even ready for a second child we were caught by surprise, let alone two more? I felt like it was the end of my life. I had to get ahold of my ex-husband, mother, or even father. Nobody was answering their phone. Finally one of my brothers answered the phone. I told him what was going on. I was a mess and he said “everything is going to be fine. You’ll be okay!” Just trying to calm me down. I couldn’t stop crying but after the shock came some excitement. All I could think about was, Will it be Boys? Girls? Identical? Fraternal? Why me??! Who has twins?? And this is where our adventure began.

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